As I sit in my kitchen, I see the dark clouds looming. Although I begged for cooler weather, with the drop in temperature comes a drop in happiness. Almost like foreboding, the shadows cast by the clouds start to seep into our souls and we are all agitated. She's upset, feeling overwhelmed. I'm lost, feeling buried beneath my responsibilities. I believed that the Valley of the Sun was immune to weather-inflicted change in emotion, but perhaps I was wrong.

We sit in silence, she, wrapped up in her own worries. I sit here, avoiding the things I know I must face. My mind tells me I need to participate, but the rest of me hears the calling of the bed. I could justify it, but do I? Maybe my mind will win out. I'll go through the motions--I shower, I dress myself well enough to go out but not too much that requires effort, I put on the smile, I carry empty conversations, I ask questions I don't really want to know the answer to. I fulfill my social obligations as a contributing member of society. But every part of me is begging to curl up and disappear for awhile. My social capabilities are starting to lack as I become more content spending time alone. Maybe this is me maturing, discovering that conversations are not unique characteristics. I say this, but I know this is not true. I reveled in a long-distance conversation, the giddiness of seeing my friend stirred in me for hours after. But I return to my present, the here and now, and find no reason to speak. I only speak when spoken to. My skills in the art of small conversation are waning because I no longer put them to use. I stick my nose in a book, or I wonder what is happening miles and miles away.

I blame my reluctance to socialize on the sky. Tomorrow, the sun will be out. Tomorrow, it will warm my insides. Tomorrow, I will want to conquer the world.

But today...I would rather sleep.

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Originally uploaded by KristynaM
...and this is my friend's picture, haha.

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Vampire Diaries was totally worth the wait. This show not only lives up to my expectations, but completely surpasses them with every single episode.

...Plus Ian and Paul just look hotter and hotter.

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I finally finished perfecting my layout, with the help of Miss Kristyna and some coding.

Call me hipster, but I do love some astrophotography. I am both amazed and scared by space--its limitlessness is both wonderful and frightening. I love to learn about space but the idea of being somewhere, with nothing to hold on to, is scary. I would fear that I would accidentally break away from the space ship and get lost in space forever. That definitely does not sound appealing. But despite this, I still find space wondrous and fascinating--I have one more science class that I need to take for school, and I hope to take astronomy.

Speaking of stars and mystical things, I have finally found my muse. After feeling completely uninspired for my Writing Science Fiction short story, I managed to stumble upon quite an interesting character. His alias was Alessandro Cagliostro and by every sense of the word, he was an adventurer. Just reading what little is offered about his life on Wikipedia, how could I not be inspired? He was like an Italian Robin Hood, mischievous and a thief, but also gave to those less fortunate. Quite amazing, really.

After struggling with the blog, a much-needed conversation with the bestie, and some time to work on homework, I feel quite accomplished. This was a (surprisingly) successful weekend. Not bad for having to babysit and help my mom at her work. Snaps for me!

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